If I had the choice, to do it over…

This question came across my mind the day before Mother’s Day. I pondered it, but I already knew the answer. However, in knowing the answer, the breakdown of that answer was taking place.

I have lived long enough to know that life is unpredictable, and we only have so much control. As I stated previously, the breakdown of the question was forming into more questions… what if I didn’t this, what if I decided that, what if, what if, and what if. The biggest question was, would I still have the same children?

If I could take back things that hurt them…yes. If I could take back the struggles, they had to endure…absolutely. Would I be willing to give up the faces that are seared into my mind and heart? Despite, who I was then, thankfully, because of God, only, they are the best thing that could have ever happened to me. So, I say this very humbly, with mistakes and all, I would choose “no” to doing it over again, because I love the people they are. When Mother’s Day arrived, I gathered my children and expressed this very thing…sorrows and joy!

To any mother who may be carrying regret, forgive yourself. If that forgiveness has to come with an apology to your child/children, do that. It’s God helping you, because He has forgiven you already.

PS…to LaChandra, Carlos, and Jazzmyne… I love you, and Happy Mother’s Day to me!